Where are we at...August 12th...okay..been almost a month since my last entry.

July went well, let's see if I can remember everything. For the 22nd, Chris & our's 4 month anniversary, he brought me to Fort Edmonton Park for a picnic (the cutest thing EVER..) We had an amazing time just lying there under a tree in the shade on the hottest day on record, almost completely secluded, with strawberries & fruit and cupcakes I baked. We were supposed to go to a movie after that, but unfortunately our day was doomed to be cut short, due to the fact that I had to come home to watch over the baby puppy while my parents went out to celebrate an uncle's surprise birthday party (no fair). So, much to the dismay of Good Michelle, other new & bad Michelle decided to have Chris drop her off, wait 'til the parents left, & have him come back...basically just ended in a big make-out session where I went the farthest with him I have ever been. (Not even that far...just, exploring a bit lol).

Also had a sleepover with Mei, was good because now that she has started at the library & I am working so much, it is hard to see her. We watched 'The Pianist' together, it is still one of my favourite movies & touches me deeply. Talked and such, she dressed me in the morning for a BBQ at Chris's house as their parents were leaving for Las Vegas for 9 days. So I went there after work, dressed up nicely, expecting pictures to be taken (none were). I met Chris's brothers girlfriends...which was good. I chatted it up with his dad (also good) and overall had a good feeling about the night, until I remembered what Chris said about his mom: that she feels that I don't like her! Which is absolutely the worst thing (well, one of the worst things) that could happen...why can't I be more outgoing & talkative with adults and with people I don't really know?! Urgh...I wish it came more naturally to me, because I really do like her, she is such a sweet mommy. I am writing down topics like a geek to broach with her the next time I see her. I feel extra bad because she just brought me back a really nice bag/purse from Las Vegas, even though she probably still thinks I don't like her.  I want to thank her in person but maybe I should just talk to her over the phone since I might not see her for awhile?

Anyway...After that, Chris's parents left and yeah. Work has been going well, Gary the guy I have been working with, the E-bay addict, quit, as he found a better job. So that sucked, as he knew like everything about the area. They hired 2 new people, Tracey, a girl who went to my junior high school with me, and Nathan, whom I have yet to work with as he booked so many freaking days off he onyl has 6 shifts in like 2 months lol. He is turning 15 or 16 in August I can't remember and seems to be pretty nice.

So yes, the parents left and Chris's brother Matt threw a party with his friends and the other older brother David and his girlfriend came & such and I guess we were invited after all, so I went to that...AWKWARD AWKWARD AWKWARD...oh my god...I thought it would be fun but man, I felt like the young person all over again, which is weird because Meggy is only 14 and she was drinking & laughing and having the time of her life with the older people and they didn't have a problem but I dunno...I felt like I stuck out and I felt left out, even though I had Chris the whole time. I feel like I come off like a snob to his family sometimes because I don't really know what to say yet still except with his Dad because his Dad asks me all kinds of questions and it's easier to open up to him, while his Mom is more kinda quiet and doesn't say much and neither do I, so that is not a good combination! His brother David tries to talk to me but yeah...Meggy is SO outgoing so no problem there, I love her & she loves me heh.

Oh, I got my ear pierced finally for my birthday on the 20th! It was part of my b-day present from Kristian so that was sweet; it hardly hurt at all, I can't wait to change the earring. Also watched 'The Devil Wears Prada' with her that night.

I am having a hard time remembering what else I did; I know it has been a busy month & that this month is going to be even busier. Well anyway on Wednesday the 9th night, we went on a double date with Mei & Shane, it was a great lot of fun. We went out for dinner at Earl's in the mall, then went and saw an okay flick "John Tucker Must Die". Then, gasp, I did another Bad Michelle thing. I told my mom I was sleeping over at Mei's...BUT I DIDN'T. I slept over at Chris's since his parents were in Vegas. Wow...we got home about 12.30, then got ready for bed, and we climbed into his waterbed. Thought I was tired on the ride home, but NEVER MIND. Needless to say, we didn't fall asleep until around 5.00. (We didn't fool around the WHOLE time...we honestly tried to sleep but it was only around 5.00 when we could drift off...waterbeds are not as comfortable to sleep on as I thought!). Woke up in the morning, he made me French Toast, mmm. Then drove me to the library as that's where I told mom to pick me up after her hair appointment, because Mei started work at 1.00 and I said I would walk there with her and get out some books. She may have suspected, who knows, but I seem to have gotten away with it. I really think that night together brought us even closer though, it was great. We talked a good deal too. This summer has been amazing on our relationship, drawing us closer & closer as we get through things thrown our way. So the next day I am super tired having only got like 3 hours of sleep, and I fall asleep...wake up and phone Travis back as he was confirming to say he could come to my party.

So my party, is in like...4 days...on the 17th. I am no where near ready, gawd...I need to start doing things. But everyone I invited can come, yeehaw. I pick good days lol, now I just pray it doesn't rain!!

This weekend I worked with my lover. Hahha. Turns out I was the only one working for the 7 hour shifts Sat. & Sun., so Paul my big boss phoned and OFFERED me if I wanted to see if my boyfriend could work with me. After some rearranging of things, he agreed so YES. The hours flew by today, so unlike how it normally goes by, so that was good. Had a little rendevous in the 'supply closet' hahah. We sound like such a horny couple but...okay yeah we're a horny couple. But I love us. And I love him. Sometimes I think about the other times we tried dating and am so...glad that is over. I can't believe how much we did wrong, how much we both screwed up, how lucky we are we made it work this time and learned from our mistakes. I remember how he came to school almost the next day after we broke up with a hickey on his neck from a different girl & how much that hurt but I have moved on I guess, or I have to because that was such a long time ago and I know how much that I am the only one for him right now.

So I came to work this morning, Dad drove me, and we drive around the park to my work and Dad apparently almost runs over this dog (I wasn't watching I was getting my stuff together to get ready to hop outa the van) and Dad comments on the dog and I'm like yeah okay well see you later and the next thing I know this man is running behind me yelling STOP and whistling and stuff so I shrug and figure, hey, he's trying to get Dad's attention before he drives off and I keep walking, as Chris is waiting and I see Meggy with him so she must have come to say Hi. (it was her birthday today). Next thing I know this guy is like right behind me yelling at me how my dad almost hit his dog and how much of an idiot he is and how I should have done something and how I should tell my dad to drive more carefully and I'm like 'excuse me, I don't control my dad, how is this my fault' and then Chris is getting in there and the guy snarls at him to stay out of it, and then MEGGY gets in there and she's like "Is your dog dead? NO" lol and so I just open the door and stuff and the guy is STILL bitching and I'm like fine whatever go away I'll give him what he wants and I say I'm sorry my dad almost ran over his dog and I will tell my dad to drive more carefully next time...jeesus christ. I am so pissed that he yelled at me. FUCK. Only of course after did I realize I should have yelled at him that you have to keep your damn dogs on a leash in that park. AGH. Okay enough ranting.

So yeah another rant I have actually, is that Dad calls from like, Grande Prairie or something and suddenly decides that we don't need to go to Mexico unless we ALL pay for ourselves. Bullshit, like I have fucking 2000 to rub together, ( I am close actually) but then I will have no money to buy anything or start saving for a car or anything. So mom doesn't even want to go anymore even though the photos and review for the resort we are looking at look GORGEOUS. The resort is called "Royal Porto Real" in the Mayan Riviera. So I dunno what is gonna happen anymore, if Dad doesn't book the fucking vacation by Tuesday we aren't going, and he hasn't done it so far. If we don't go I don't know what I will do. I will snap. I will SNAP. How many times have they said we are going on a vacation, how many times has it NOT happened, and how many years have gone by with NO VACATION. UGH.

So other things booked in August: Maybe a shopping trip with Chris on Tuesday, Thursday is my party, with the girls sleeping over. The 22nd (5 month anniversary) where it is my turn to pick what we do and I DID plan it out lol. I am going to take us to the Zoo and to this cool old ice cream place that my sister told me about. Hopefully it won't all be TOO expensive but yeah. Uhm, the 26th apparently we are going on another double date with Mei & Shane lol, so that will be fun, we are supposed to dress up more this time. The 29th I told everyone in FAR advance that I have free tickets to the Waterpark again, so I can't wait for that, I hope it is 1/2 as much fun as last time. Most likely it will be : Me, Mei, Nicole, Jessica, Meagan, Shane, Chris & Justin (and if they want to bring some of their guy friends but they have to pay). Then the 30th is the annual summer sleepover at Nicole's in her trailor with the girls, so I hope I am allowed to do all of this.

Hunter is going to be booked for puppy training classes beginning of September hahah, so that should be interesting. Also in the beginning of September I start my in-class driver's training. Unfortunately it runs on a Friday and Saturday so I have to book of days to work in September which sucks as this job ends September 17th, so I try to work as much as I can. But I am happy that I will drive soon, although I don't know how I will be able to afford it and whether I will actually drive before like, spring.

Other than that...just living the life and having an extremely good summer. Nicole is coming back soon after being away for 2 weeks, Jessica is slowly warming back up to me I think after a long period of us being pretty distant. I don't know if we will ever be the same again. I will try to write sooner next time.

michelle xx