So, I did end up going shopping with Chris on Tuesday, sort of. I went early in the morning to pay Kristian's tuition to NAIT, and then to go get my new glasses (librarian, sexy-college girl look glasses, haha). Finally met him around 3.00 and we did some shopping, he bought some new shirts & jeans before I got there and they are pretty damn sexy (although I think everything about him is sexy & irresistible & oh god do I have it bad for that boy...). So then that night his family was having a birthday supper for his sister and kind of his dad as they were back from Vegas. So I decided to go to that, as it gave me a chance to thank his mom for the purse and to try to talk to her more as that has been weighing on my mind for like, a month. And believe me, the same thing weighing on your mind gets tiring. So we went to Kelsey's where Chris works and it was good, I gave Meggy her present (a big cushy Cars 'Mater' dude from the Disney store.) After that Chris drove me home, we took a little pit stop on the side of the road to uhm, talk, and then I went home.

Wednesday I got up at 10.00 and cleaned the entire day. A little tiring yes, but I wanted this party. Thursday morning I got my hair cut short again at 10.00 in the morning and I think it looks pretty good, next time I get it cut I will have to watch out and not cut it short as grad will be approaching. So then when I got back after shopping for party food and DQ cake (my little pony, so cute) I got a call from Paul my boss, and he wants me to work next Tuesday & Wednesday (my day's off, and Tuesday is the 22nd, Chris & our's 5 month). I had the big plan of the zoo and ice cream place so I told Paul I would phone him back. Then I had to tell Chris and that did not go over well, apparently when he hung up he started swearing, threw the phone, and started crying...I almost started crying too because I knew he was disappointed in me but I really need the money. Because this job ends September 17th and I'm already taking days off in September for Driver's Training. He hung up and said he'd see me at my party. So I got all ready for my party.

The party went well, quite a bit different from last year, but it was stil good. The major differences was that I was sitting with Chris and I was going out with him, compared to last year where I was pining for him, and that Jessica wants to move to St. Albert because she likes the people better there. Ugh. Don't get me started on that. We had cake, opened presents (Madagascar movie from Meggy, movie tickets from Meagan, earrings & craft thingie from Nicole, & lipgloss, moisturizer, photo album, & BEAUTIFUL frame picture thingie to hang on my wall of all the girls from Mei). Then just played around, went in Hot Tubby, (travis ended up in Meagan's bathing suit for $50 lol). Boys went home around 12.00 and I had the 5 girls and Meggy stay the night. Was very fun. Woke up in the morning and had waffles. Chris came to pick up Meggy & drive Nicole home around 12.30 so I got to see him in the morning too, and I gave him some waffles, apples for his mom, and Meggy brought home the cupcakes I made for her as a surprise. After that I just got ready for work.

Justin left my party around 9.00, so I was kinda disappointed in that, especially since it came out of nowhere and he never said he had to leave early before then. Later I found out Meggy had been talking to him about his girlfriend because she went to school with her and apparently she is just going to break Justin's heart and she is kind of a whore. Oh well...I feel bad for Justin but he really wants a girlfriend and no one is going to tell him otherwise...I hope he will still come to the Waterpark on the 29th, but who knows.

So hence I start my 7 day in a row work week, I am on day #3, and I am glad for the money. Chris came to my work yesterday around 4.30 because he started at 12.00 as well and worked 'til 9.00, and he  brought me lunch HE made from Kelsey's (how freaking sweet..I am so spoiled and special ). It was a yummy chicken and mashed potatoes and a few other things. Loved it. Probably won't get to spend any more than 20 minutes with him visiting me at work until Tuesday but hopefully we will still have a good time...

I can't stop thinking about my boy, and it is a good thinking...everytime I see him lately, I just get this feeling of I can't believe I have him...I am so lucky...and he is so amazing!  It must be because we are getting closer because I want to see him all the time, (impossible) and I think, I have fallen so hard for this boy, and yet you can never really know what is going on inside of their head...I probably won't know if he wants to break up until he springs it on me...a scary thought...because before I guess I always kinda thought I would be doing the breaking up if we did...but now I realize I have absolutely no inclination to want to do so..everything is going so perfect with us, even WITH the hitches (not being able to do what we wanted on the 22nd etc)...and I think about Kristian & Derek and man oh man, both our relationships started out so familiar from what she has told me, it is scary and I do not, DO NOT want to end up like that...like he just came home one day out of the blue and broke up with her. I know we won't because everyone is different but ack...I like him so MUCH. Even WHEN he is being a pain in the ass lol.

But anyway I drove to work today with Mom, that was fun...with other traffic and I must say I don't think I was too bad at all. I am at work right now...money money...it's all I do it for. I best be off.

michelle xx

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